Lover Without Love

Can't believe my first post in 2014 is about love.
I started 2014 with the one i like, i made wishes to the fireworks and the stars and God.

"I like this guy, can he be mine?"

I don't know, i think im drunk on the idea of love at the first sight.
there i saw him in the eye and i thought of "hey I like you already.."
and after what i've been through in all my tragic love life..
i've been thinking after i get to know him..

"do I wanna do this?"
"am I really in love?"

he's perfect, he's nice and everything. I feel insecure sometimes.

"will he fall for a girl like me?"

i don't know, its just the universe always playing with my feelings
one time it makes everything seem real, one time it can be worst
and it happens to me now.

i've put my hopes high, expecting too much
and its not good for a lover without love, like me.
else i can be so broken and not sure anymore.

and I sent prayers to God,

"don't let love broke me again, if I met him for something, I wish it wasn't for a 'goodbye' because I've done so much about left or being left without goodbye but it really meant a forever goodbye."

"let him see who I really am, let he decide if he can accept me for who I am. And if he can't do that, oh please God, let me better off alone. Save me someone special and if it takes time I'll wait."

should I try more?
or should I stop?
God and the stars, lead me the way,
but another goodbye would be so painful.