Killing Self-time

She's got Wander eyes. Sadly it died on a pocketfull of secrets. No longer looking in a distance, all she cares about is how the cigarette shes holding in between the gap of her fingers can kill the loneliness of a dying soul.

"I dont even know what im thinking or doing" She whispers close to the window while starting at nowhere, its raining outside. The chair in front of her is empty. The gap between her and reality is worse, she got nobody that can look into her eyes and heart in the depth. So she burried all the things she felt and she saw to the very ground of a broken hearty part of her life, just like how she puts off the cigarette.

- by A

Tutorial: CARA HAPUS POSTING BLOG GANDA

Dear para blogger yang lagi sebel karena interface blog sudah berubah ketampilan baru sekarang, yang mana postingan blog atau widget blog jadi double/ganda/ada dua. I will give you simple tutorial: 
1. Klik Template pada laman blog anda
2. Edit Javascrpit/HTML
3. Tekan Ctrl + F atau F3 dan ketik pada kolom find: blog2, dan akan muncul sederet kode untuk widget blog ganda tersebut.
4. Di mulai dari kode: 


b:widget id='Blog2' locked='false' title='Blog Posts' type='Blog'

5. Hapus sampai dengan kode:  

/b:widget

NOTE: ini lumayan banyak yang harus dihapus dan perhatikan baik baik sampai anda menemukan titik akhir tersebut.

kira-kira yang harus dihapus adalah sebanyak ini -- aku copy paste dari semua yang dihapus ada sebanyak itu.

  

SEMOGA BERMANFAAT! BERI KOMEN JIKA POSTINGAN INI MEMBANTU. TERIMA KASIH :)

SHY GIRLS "Second Heartbeat"

Hello! This one song is a good bit of music being created and a fair buzz around music lately. SHY GIRLS, is from Portland, Oregon. Dan Vidmar for the smooth groove, beautiful vocals and music.

Its been a few months that i cant stop listening to this song but I dont know I just feel like writing it down now because like, oh my god, it just gives me chill to the bone. Its not that I'm related to the song but you know, when you hear that one song that can just explain your mood completely, amazing tune, just gorgeous. I absolutely love it. There is just something about SHY GIRLS,CHECK HIM OUT!

I met somebody. (Another story)

i'm still at work and its been raining all day long outside, but i am writing down something to post because the last time i blogged was the first of 2014. it was about the guy i once liked hehe. well yeah about that one im gonna flash back a lil bit, nothing happened actually, we just went out for dates but not actually dating and then he left to London to get his master degree. we lost contact after 3 months he left lol.

anyways, its been a long time since i didnt date anyone at all for almost 3 years lol but its been going on and off to go out with guys though, i dont actually like to build a more serious kind of relationship since the last time i had so i just had a little fun just doing it without pressure. but its all gone now, i dont do that kinda thing anymore. i met somebody.

i dont know, i just feel like stopping meeting guys since i met him, i was not even sure if i like him like that or not. i had this thought on my mind that i am not ready for a relationship or something like that, i dont wanna get hurt by somebody anymore. like NO MORE. but he's different. the kinda different i wanted for so long.

believe it or not, i am in a relationship with him, a long distance kind of boyfriend & girlfriend thing. i only wish that he's not gonna waste my time.. giving my heart to him is just so easy for me to do i dont know why, i actually wanted to know why? i wanted to learn how to put an effort for giving your heart out to someone.

just hope that he won't break me since my last broken pieces of heart not even fixed yet.

Lover Without Love

Can't believe my first post in 2014 is about love.
I started 2014 with the one i like, i made wishes to the fireworks and the stars and God.

"I like this guy, can he be mine?"

I don't know, i think im drunk on the idea of love at the first sight.
there i saw him in the eye and i thought of "hey I like you already.."
and after what i've been through in all my tragic love life..
i've been thinking after i get to know him..

"do I wanna do this?"
"am I really in love?"

he's perfect, he's nice and everything. I feel insecure sometimes.

"will he fall for a girl like me?"

i don't know, its just the universe always playing with my feelings
one time it makes everything seem real, one time it can be worst
and it happens to me now.

i've put my hopes high, expecting too much
and its not good for a lover without love, like me.
else i can be so broken and not sure anymore.

and I sent prayers to God,

"don't let love broke me again, if I met him for something, I wish it wasn't for a 'goodbye' because I've done so much about left or being left without goodbye but it really meant a forever goodbye."

"let him see who I really am, let he decide if he can accept me for who I am. And if he can't do that, oh please God, let me better off alone. Save me someone special and if it takes time I'll wait."

should I try more?
or should I stop?
God and the stars, lead me the way,
but another goodbye would be so painful.